Insomnia diaries volume 2…


Lack of sleep gives me way too much time to over think everything. I did not look at the clock this time. When I do, I calculate how many hours of sleep I can get if I fall asleep right now.  What about now? If i sleep now…you get the idea.That stresses me out more, and the vicious cycle continues.

So instead I thought about my upcoming birthday and got a little homesick…every year I get together with friends and go to my favorite restaurant… Not this year…I’m thousands of miles away! None of those people are in same state I am.

I can make new traditions, but I sure do miss my mom.I miss my special flourless chocolate cake. I miss my best friend.

I don’t have a favorite restaurant here yet. I can have a party with my new friends, but they don’t know me well….lack of sleep makes me sentimental I suppose. Blah blah blah feelings. I want my mommy poor me poor me.

So many cups of coffee into my day and I’m down right Slaphappy! Lack of sleep is bad for your mind, your looks, your metabolism… I’m going to go get some gummy bears and take a nap on my lunch break..



Sunscreen is the best anti-aging product! Don’t have a leather face, use sunscreen!!

Skin care

So, you know you should be wearing sunscreen, rain or shine everyday. (duh!) Most people don’t because of the smell, feel or just don’t think about it. Wearing sunscreen everyday helps prevent skin cancer, sunburn and skin aging!! What more could you ask from one single product?  Have you ever seen a person over 30 who doesn’t wear spf?More often than not, they have wrinkles, uneven skin tone, and that leathery look. No thank you!! I use spf 50 on my face daily and spf 30 on my body, this is just for daily activities. If I’m going to spend time outside, I use a higher spf! I am the world’s most pale person, so avoiding sunburn is a daily struggle!

I have started using Hawiian Tropic Sheer Touch sunscreen in place of my body lotion everyday. It has spf 30 and a little bit of shimmer! Don’t be afraid of the shimmer, it’s very very subtle! Not glitter! Will not make you look like a stripper! ( no offense to strippers) It smells a little bit like coconut when you first apply it, which doesn’t bother me because I think it smells beachy. After wearing it for a little while the smell fades away completely.  It feels like body lotion on, not sticky or gross feeling!

Every time I wear it, my guy says I look like I glow from within!! He is a great judge of what beauty products work, because he knows nothing about them! The compliments are genuine. It’s easy to remember to use it daily because I just put it on after my shower as a body lotion alternative. It’s moisturizing like a lotion too. I highly recommend it!!

Do you have a favorite sunscreen? Share!!



Insomnia diaries.. volume 1

relationships, sleep, songs

So lately, I have not been sleeping much. My mind is full of thoughts and songs and I can’t turn it off!!! I took a sleeping pill at 9pm, might as well have just had a glass of water. I have been this way my whole life. I just have to think the whole thing through, listen to the song over and over to get it out of my head and next thing I know, it’s 3 am and my day is shot! Stay awake or sleep all day?? That is the question…Here is the random crap that keeps me awake….

I had a long conversation with a friend today ( yesterday technically, since it is after midnight) and she is a lucky unicorn who has never had her heart broken. How lucky she is!! How jealous am I ? I was explaining the feeling of having your guts ripped out and run over by a train. She has no idea, none! She has never sang Sinead O’Connor’s “Nothing Compares to you” three months later at a bar while crying into a mai tai. I am probably the only person who would do that.. I can’t talk about my feelings very well and that is why I always have a playlist. I had to tell her what songs go with what soul crushing moment in my life! At least we laughed. I can be very dramatic! Is it just me? Am I stupid or brave for going all in like I do?  Realization-guys I date are always mean to me. Aha moment!!

Not related to that,but keeping me awake is that I have no idea what happened to the 401K’s I had at old jobs!! There should be 3 and I always put the maximum amount in. I have long forgotten the passwords and when I am retirement age I will have completely forgotten about them!! I don’t imagine 70 year old me will remember where I worked in 2002!! I imagine by then I will be some sort of eccentric recluse with no idea how to get my money back!! Will I have to eat cat food??

I had a very disappointing horoscope. I  know, I know most people would not care about this, but cut me some slack, I wanted insight into why I am not sleeping. It said,and I quote “You will suffer a great deal until venus comes out of retrograde on the 15th.” I have 9 days to suffer!! Suffer why? Not sleeping, or something awful is about to happen to me!! What happens on the 15th? So I checked like 5 different horoscope websites and they all seem to agree, suffer I will!! Well, I get really into this kind of thing when I am upset, so onto online tarot card readings I went! It’s a slippery slope after all. After a few hours of this, yes hours, It is unclear what is going to happen, but it won’t be good. Am I cursed?? Horoscopes and webmd are the same in the sense that you can lose mass amounts of time over analyzing everything until you are convinced you are dying!!

I do believe that lack of sleep is not helping at all. What keeps you up at night? Do you have any remedies for sleep? Let me know!!