I thought the sky was falling, then I went back on cymbalta…

addictions, Adventures, happy, mental health, relationships, Self esteem

I have been taking antidepressants and anti-anxiety meds or a long time. At some point, my guy convinced me I didn’t need them, so I abruptly stopped taking them. Don’t EVER EVER do that… Here is what happened

I started feeling like everyone hated me, then I started getting really paranoid. I started crying uncontrollably all the time. I was depressed and totally irrational and it just kept getting worse. It’s like my mind would twist every situation into more than it needed to be, but I was genuinely hurt over nothing. I started drinking more and more, and then I drank a bottle of wine and took several ambien. I overdosed and ended up in the hospital. I was unconscience for almost 2 days! My guy was devastated! I scared the hell out of everyone!! I was not myself for almost a month! I thought about killing myself all the time, thought everyone hated me, and I felt so very alone and confused all the time.

I looked up what going off cymbalta suddenly does and here are the side effects:

Blackouts

Suicidal Thoughts

Tremor

Nausea

Brain “zaps” electric shock like symptoms

Anxiety

irritability

Hostility

Tremor

Visual and audible hallucinations

Paranoia

Nightmares

Involuntary crying or laughing

Confusion

Hypomania

Seizures

Well, I guess that explains why I was not myself at all. I have gone back on Cymbalta and am taking it as directed. If I try to get off it again, I will do so under a doctor’s care. What it all came down to was, while my guy does not think I need them, I had to make the decision to go back on them because my quality of life was not good when I tried to get off them.

I think maybe that is the hardest thing to do, when those you love think they know what is best for you, but at the end of the day, you gotta know what you need and be willing to go against loved ones if need be to save yourself. I’m not “crazy” but I know I need the antidepressants and was given them for a reason.

I’m happy to report that I am happy, healthy and myself again!

-Kristin

 

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4 thoughts on “I thought the sky was falling, then I went back on cymbalta…

  1. I was hoping for the day that you returned to posting blogs again. Now I can see why it’s been a while.

    That was a very long adventure for you. You are such a brave person having to go through what your have endured and making a comeback… WOW.
    Glade to hear you are doing better.

    I am excited to see what your going to write about next.

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