Anxiety, cold feet or something else…what am I so afraid of?

Adventures, happy, mental health, relationships, sleep

I am a very decisive person. I know what I want the moment I see it and can make choices quickly. I want those shoes, that guy, this house, those dishes,red nail polish, ect. you get the idea.. ( Not all my choices are good,I make bad ones all the time, but I made them quickly) So today I officially move into a new house with my guy. All my stuff in one place, finally! We have “unofficially” been living together for months now. When I moved into the motel, he came over and brought more stuff each time and we just started living together, no weird awkward relationship talks, just felt natural. We have kinda moved our relationship at warp speed since day 1, and none of it ever freaked me out because it all feels very right. We said ” I love you” within weeks, started talking about forever within the first month and I never freaked out, I was never worried. (I did however consult a psychic a few times to make sure, but that’s a story for another post.) For some reason, I have been up all night freaking out and what-ifing and basically being the most neurotic person in the world! Why?

I was full panic mode this morning and my guy said I have cold feet. He’s probably right, but why now?  I’m suddenly terrified of losing my identity!! What if I don’t make friends? What if he decides to leave me? What if I never really feel at home? What if eating something he shot makes me too sad? He is very into hunting and is very excited for me to try deer and squirrel-yes, you read that right, it was not a typo. I agreed to try squirrel meat! Terrified, but keeping an open mind. (I have never ever eaten something that didn’t come from a grocery store or restaurant, never seen hunting in real life) What if I become a completely different person while learning to live in “his world”. What if I am too unorganized, or have too many weird quirks and he hates living with me? What if the sky falls?

Anxiety is a cruel affliction! Moving is stressful. Maybe I just need to take a chill pill and take a nap. Either way, I actually feel a bit calmer now that I have told you guys, or Y’all as my guy would say.

-I will keep you updated. Wish me luck!






Mattifying makeup, drugstore addition

makeup, saving money, Skin care

You know what isn’t sexy? A greasy face. This is a brand new problem for me as I typically have dry skin, but summer in the south is HOT!!  After being outside for a short while, my makeup was melting and my face looked like it was coated in oil, ewww. So in desperation and with limited funds, I headed to Wal-Mart to buy something to fix my problem asap.

I bought Milani Prime Shield, a mattifying primer. I use this just on the T-zone of my face before foundation. It makes my pores disappear and my foundation go on smoothly and stay matte.

I bought L’OREAL Infalliable Pro Matte foundation. I usually don’t like foundation, but this one I like.( I’m more of a tinted moisturizer or BB cream girl) It stays on, doesn’t feel heavy and has a nice coverage. I’m obsessed!

I bought Rimmel Stay Matte powder. I use this only on the T-zone to set my foundation or for occasional touch ups. Under $5.00 and looks natural so I’m a fan.

I put all my makeup on as usual, and then finish up with Zuri Flawless Makeup Setting Spray Matte Finish. It sets my makeup and keeps it shine free!

Since I have been using these new products, my face stays looking good, not greasy and gross! I bought it all at Wal-Mart for under $10.00/product. I’m a huge fan!!

If you’re looking for mattifying products on the cheap, I recommend these!



The art of hangover beauty

Adventures, makeup, relationships, Skin care

So last night, my guy and I went out. We had both had a bad day and we did shots!! We shared a steak, like we always do, because the poor man never gets to eat all of his own food!( actually, we always just order 1 meal to share) This really pisses off the bartender who hates my guts, but that’s her problem, not mine. We drank and talked to people and drank some more. Needless to say, it got interesting!!  By 9;30, yes all that by 9:30,we were on our way home. I had to drive because he had enough drinks to render him unable to stand up! This says a lot because he’s a big, tough dude and has a bit of a tolerance.

He passed out, and I got lost. I stopped at 2 gas stations to ask for directions relying on the kindness of strangers which eventually got me pointed in the right direction and eventually took his phone to use his gps. I had left my phone at home. Two hours later, I found home. When we got home, he could not walk nearly face planted onto the pavement, so I dragged a 6 foot 8 biker on my back like an ant up 3 flights of stairs. Does that count as weight training? I think so. ( I’m 5 foot 4 by the way)

So, if you’re going to party like it’s 1999 ( RIP Prince) with sexy bikers,you need to wash your hair the next day because it and you probably smell like something.  I make sure to exfoliate my face and entire body before using body wash and then wash and condition my hair.This is crucial…moisturize!!Dehydration makes you look old, no bueno. So I use a thick rich face cream and body lotion or body oil.

When you are hungover, foundation and powder are not your friend, so instead I use a BB cream, I like Dr.Jart+ beauty balm with spf 45. It covers just enough to even my skin tone and then I use a little concealer where needed, some blush to warm up my sallow complexion, some eye shadow and red lipstick that’s it! Less is more.

I look and smell like it never happened…now if I could just get rid of this headache.

Do you have any hangover beauty tips? Share!




I went camping and slept outside, and that doesn’t sound like me at all

Skin care

On the fourth of July, I went camping. It wasn’t the plan, we were just going to go to the lake, but they gave us a campsite, so we swam in the lake all day and slept under the stars and much to the surprise of anyone who knows me well, I loved it!!

I never thought I would like camping! I went once before, and there were NO BATHROOMS and no toilet paper!! I’m not accustomed to peeing outside, so I accidentally peed right into my pants! I guess I didn’t lean back far enough. I had to go back to where everyone was with pee on my pants and all over my feet! There was no way I was going to try to poop in the woods!! Needless to say, it was not my favorite weekend.

This time it was different. We had only planned to go to the lake for the day, so we didn’t pack for overnight. They gave us a campsite though, it had a grill and there were bathrooms with running water ( I could even wash my hands) We were having such a good time, we decided to stay the night. With no toothbrush, change of clothes or hair products I agreed. I usually won’t go anywhere overnight without my toothbrush and night cream, serum, eye cream and a change of clothes. Luckily, my guy thought my frizzy after lake hair was adorable!

We went to the store and bought steaks to grill but forgot silverware so we ate the steak with our hands like cavemen!! I cut pizza with a fork, so this was way out of character for me!! It wasn’t so bad though, it was funny. We could not stop laughing at each other. Then we watched the sunset and fell asleep under the stars. It’s one of the best memories I have so far.

I’ve been trying all kinds of new things lately, and so far I’ve found that I like all kinds of things I never thought I would. I have tried to ride a mechanical bull, tried and failed to country line dance, tried oysters and alligator (not together cuz that would be gross!) learned to drive a 4 wheeler and pet a cow!!

Who knows what’s next, but it won’t be dull!