I got new eye shadow and my eyelids smell like peaches!!

happy, makeup, Skin care

So, I ordered the Two Faced Sweet Peach eye shadow pallet from Sephora. The colors are great and it even comes with instructions for 3 different looks! The instructions are really easy to follow too! It has a great range of colors that can be used for natural looks as well as bold smokey eye looks. The colors are very pigmented and last all day. Even if you don’t use the instructions and just do your own thing, it’s hard to mess up because all the colors go well together.

I have been using it for weeks and never realized, it smells like peaches!! It just never occurred to me to sniff my makeup. Is that a thing? However I feel like it’s pretty cool that it smells fruity. I have always hated it when someone asks me to tell them something interesting about myself. I never know what they might find interesting and always say something dumb. Now, I have my answer!! My answer is ” My eyelids smells like peaches.” I bet they haven’t heard that before. tee hee. If they don’t laugh or at least smile, then I know we won’t be friends. ( I’m joking)

So now I am not only very happy with my eye makeup, in the event that someone is in a position to sniff my eyelid, I think they will be quite impressed! My best friend is probably the only person who might sniff my eyelid, if I asked her to, just to see if I am telling the truth! I really want to know if the peach smell lasts on your eyelids too…

Have you tried it?





The under $5.00 mask that is saving my skin!!

Natural products, Skin care

So, if you have read my previous posts, you know giving up caffeine has put me on quite the roller coaster ride emotionally. Stress is bad for your skin! Stress breakouts are not cute. Lack of sleep is also no good. I basically have the recipe for bad skin this week…

So I happened to buy Freeman feeling beautiful cleansing apple cider vinegar clay mask and scrub. You can use it as a mask or a scrub and it cleans all the gook out of your pores. Apple Cider Vinegar does everything!! I like to use it as a mask, and then when you wash it off it is a scrub. Double duty product. I swear this mask is so much better than some of the popular pricey ones!! Trust. I would not stear you wrong. You can get it at Ulta or the drugstore for around $3.00. I’m obsessed with it.

So usually, I wash, exfoliate then apply my masks. Since this one exfoliates, I can skip a step. It doesn’t dry out your skin like a lot of clay masks do, doesn’t smell bad, and you have the option to just wash your face with it. My skin is clear, clean and even. I love when I find an inexpensive product that works really well!!Holy grail of masks!!


Giving up caffeine day 3! Dear decaf, I don’t think we should see each other anymore…

addictions, Adventures

So it’s day 3! Hooray! I committed to 3 days and I am not cranky or crying at all. Thank goodness because my own emotional roller coaster was wearing me out. My sleep is not any better though. As of now, I have not slept yet. I’m thinking this doesn’t have anything to do with not drinking coffee, and more to do with my weird sleep patterns. I did finish the book that I was reading, ( Betty White autobiography) which is good, but now I need something new to read.

I am my usual self, and I’m in a great mood despite being awake all night. I am drinking my last cup of decaf, ever I hope. It smells like real coffee, but the taste is off and it just doesn’t feel right. Kind of like dating someone who is really nice and great on paper but there is no spark,lackluster and meh. Best luck on your future endeavors decaf!! You’re great and someone out there is going to be lucky to have you, that person isn’t me.

So now that my serious addiction to caffeine is mostly over, I will allow myself 1 cup of coffee in the morning and only 1. You know, just a taste to get me right. Tomorrow I’m heading to Dunkin Doughnuts and using my gift card. I like their coffee a little better than starbucks, I love the way that place smells. It’s like 20 minutes away, but I still have $10.00 on a gift card I received last year.

I’d like to thank everyone who supported me the last 2 days while I had some sort of breakdown. I was hard to be around. I whined a lot!!

What should I read next? Mystery sounds good..



Giving up caffeine day 2

addictions, Adventures

So I just woke up and I have a depressing cup of decaf in front of me. At least it smells real. The taste is off though. I have been crying!! Stupid Forrest Whitaker song by Bad Books plays on repeat in my head and I keep sobbing. I think this is a withdrawal thing…

My hands are still very shaky and I wonder why I thought this was a good idea. It’s coffee, not heroine!! Thank goodness I never tried hard drugs, if this is coffee withdrawl, I can’t imagine getting off something harder. The headache is only a dull annoyance by now.

All my feelings are right on the surface, raw, very real to me and I really hate it. I am not myself, this is a huge understatement!! I don’t even know if I really am this sad or it’s an addiction thing. Why am I even doing this to myself??

I won’t give up though, I made a commitment to myself to get off caffeine and I refuse to back down. I can be very determined to accomplish my goals. I am usually a happy person and I wonder if I just had a stupid cup of coffee would I be happy again? 3 days, I committed to 3 days and then I can have coffee if I want.

My guy thinks this is all very adorable. I’m a weepy mess and he is patronizing me! I have threatened to stab him 5 times! He knows I won’t, I’d miss him. He’s drinking his water and smiling. I cling to my decaf and try to start my day like an actual human being. I’m only kind of understanding my emails, I’ve checked the weather twice because I forgot what it was. I’m kind of spazzy. I can’t focus on anything and everything makes me cry!!! Why is there not a support group for this?



Leibster award!!

award, Skin care

I was just nominated for a Leibster award my Wander/Summer! I’m ridiculously excited and happy!! Check out her blog!!!!

The rules are that I need to display the award, trying to figure out how…

Answer 11 questions

Nominate 11 blogs

List 11 random facts about yourself.

Here goes..

11 random facts about me… I am very short and I add a few inches to my height on my driver’s license. I am obsessed with making playlists for everything. I hate how small my hands are.I don’t remember what my natural hair color is.I save every fortune from every fortune cookie I have ever had and carry them in my wallet.My favorite book is The Great Gatsby. I have the same birthday as Woody Allen ( not year, just day) I have big feet for my height.I have a bunch of T-shirts that I stole from ex boyfriends and will never give back.I hate wearing socks.I over plucked my eyebrows in junior high and they won’t grow back so I fill them in everyday.

Answer the questions..

  1. Pick a word that best describes your blog. I would say honest. It’s really just my thoughts and musings on beauty, life, fitness, relationships..
  2. What inspires you to blog? I have always wanted to be a writer! I have a lot to say and I think, a unique perspective.
  3. What is your all-time favorite dish? Pizza! Homemade pizza with spinach and pineapple!
  4. What is one makeup item you cannot live without? Black eyeliner!!!
  5. What is one skincare product you swear by?  moisturizer!!! with sunscreen for day.
  6. Who is your favorite fictional character in a movie? Annie Hall
  7. Who is your favorite Disney princess? Cinderella
  8. Which do you prefer, an E-book or an actual book? Actual book!! I love the feel of turning the pages and I love to collect and share books.
  9. Are you a coffee lover or a tea lover? Coffee!!!
  10. What is the most offensive thing someone has said to you online? I have been called a bimbo with nothing to say who talks too much!!
  11.  If you were given a chance to change your name, what name would you give to yourself? I always felt my name didn’t suit me. I would rename myself Jessica.


So here are my 11 questions..

1.What is your favorite song?

2.What pills do you take every day?

3.E reader or book?

4. Favorite movie?

5. What inspires you to blog?

6.What do you smell like?

7.What can you cook well?

8.What is your best quality?

9. What is your worst habit?

10.What is the worst thing someone has said to you?

11. What was the happiest day of your life so far?

the liebster award

I nominate..

1.rambling kori




5.opinionated man


7.blair ( the shameful sheep)





Giving up caffeine, day 1

addictions, Adventures, relationships

I am a caffeine addict. I drink coffee ( black) all day long, red bull, rockstar energy drinks,5 hour energy and more coffee.I have been drinking coffee everyday since I was 12. That much caffeine just isn’t healthy. I decided to go cold turkey today …

I’m always tired, I can fall asleep at a moments notice. A very dear friend suggested that it might be because I sleep poorly due to the amount of caffeine in my body. I am a terrible sleeper. I sleep a lot, but am never rested. I fall asleep watching movies. I stay up late and sleep soundly for a few hours and then am up at like 2 am washing the dishes… I lay awake in bed for hours with some dumb song in my head. The worst is when I don’t know all the words…Hours of you tube to finish the song, so my mind can rest, so I can sleep.

The headache!!!!! My head is pounding. It’s not a migraine, but almost. I’ve been awake for 2 hours and I feel loopy and exhausted and my head hurts. The active ingredient in most headache medicine is caffeine. So maybe the headache is a culmination of all the headaches I would have had if I wasn’t all coffee’d up?

My hands are shaky.  Why oh why do my hands keep shaking?? Coffee is addictive and I am seriously addicted. So now I am withdrawing and I feel awful.

I am starting to bargain with myself. Just 1 cup of coffee. Just to wake up. Just a taste..I can barely focus. I miss the smell!! I am determined to see if this will fix my sleep problems. According to the internet, if I can make it 3 days, I will sleep better, feel better and be healthier.

I am cranky! I am not nice today. My guy thinks it’s adorable. I flipped him off!He doesn’t drink coffee, he just wakes up somehow and has water. Water!! Who wakes up in the morning  having water? There is a ritual, I have my first cup of coffee, gather my thoughts, check my email, have another cup of coffee and then plan my day. You can’t do that with water. He is a unicorn! A unicorn that is currently pissing me off by saying how cute it is that I am all cranky and sleepy…He says my eye is twitching and he finds this adorable. I tell him if I wasn’t sort of attached to him, I’d stab him. Like I said, I’m cranky.

Soo, this is day 1 of trying to give up coffee. Have you done it? Are you a unicorn who wakes up without caffeine? How?








Sexting, a cautionary tale..

Adventures, relationships

One very drunken night, a long time ago, an ex boyfriend and I were being silly. He picked up my phone and started taking pictures of me because he said I looked really pretty.I was naked. Completely naked. He was playing photographer and we were being stupid and drunk. He then went to send himself the pictures he took and accidentally sent them to everyone on my phone!!

My boss, co-workers, friends, family,and ex boyfriends all got this picture. I had a ton of people in my phone!! He then sent a follow up begging everyone to delete it. I was mortified!!  I actually cried, and I don’t like to cry in front of anyone. Drinking and technology do not mix!! He was sorry, and I believe it really was an accident, but that doesn’t make it better. This kind of stuff only happens to me!

I had to walk into rooms where I knew everyone in the room had seen me naked. It’s very hard to keep your dignity in this situation!! No one said anything to me about it, but I knew they saw. Did they show anyone else? Probably. It wasn’t even a great picture!  The dude and I broke up eventually. We got back together briefly a few years later, and he still had the picture!! Geeze, who else might still have it. Makes my skin crawl just thinking about it!

When I met my current guy, we had some mutual friends and I felt I needed to tell him about what happened and get a head of the situation in case it came up. In case someone showed him or told him about it. Not fun! He was great about it and didn’t care a bit. He thought it was pretty funny! He has never taken a naked picture of me!! We will only text sexy words, not pictures to each other.

I know it’s really popular to send pictures of yourself to someone, and no judgement if that’s your thing. Just keep in mind that even if you’re not an idiot who accidentally sends it to the wrong recipient, it could still get shared. Celebrities have their phones hacked, and they always seem to have naked pictures of themselves on their phones. Break ups can be ugly, some people are jerks, no matter how much you trust the person it’s still a risk. Revenge porn is a thing! A disgusting thing, but people do it.  Just be careful.



10 ways to beat a bad mood

fitness, happy, relationships

Have you ever just woken up in a bad mood for no reason? I have. No one wants to be around me when I’m cranky, even me! Here are my no fail ways to cheer up already!!

1. Exercise. To beat a bad mood, I like serious cardio. Kickboxing or Zumba are my go to’s, but do something you like. I know, you don’t want to, do it anyway. It works. You could even just put on music and dance. Jump rope, whatever you like that gets your heart pumping.

“Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people don’t just shoot their husbands. They just don’t.“-Elle Woods in Legally Blonde

2. Get outside. Getting some fresh air and some sunshine is a great mood changer. Vitamin D! You could run outside and combine 1 and 2. I don’t enjoy running, so I just take a walk. You could garden if you enjoy it, just take a drive with the windows open, or walk the dog.

3.Eat citrus fruits. I have no idea what the science behind this is, but when I eat an orange or grapefruit, my mood improves. The smell of oranges or grapefruit always brings a smile to my face.

4. Listen to happy music. When I’m in a bad mood, I want to listen to angry music, but don’t give in. If I listen to music that makes me want to dance, I cheer up. Anything by Prince, Britney Spears,Gorillaz, Modest Mouse. They play Baby got back by Sir Mix Alot at weddings for a reason.( are you smiling yet?)

5. Have sex. You can’t be angry after an orgasm, just try to prove me wrong…

6.Watch a funny movie or tv show. I like stand-up comedy, but whatever works for you. The movie Central Intelligence is pretty hilarious. Bob’s Burgers, the Simpsons, The Mick,are all tv shows that might cheer you up. Everyone has a different sense of humor though, so maybe my suggestions won’t work for you, but something will.

7. Do something just for you that you enjoy. Read a book, get a manicure, get your hair done, shop, work on cars, draw, paint,taxidermy,model trains… whatever your hobbies are. No judgement.

8. Turn your phone off and have a conversation with someone. Ask about their day. Focusing on someone else can bring you out of your head. It also makes you a better friend when you’re not always talking about yourself. They might even say something funny!!

9.Wear comfortable clothes.If you’re wearing something itchy or restrictive it won’t make your mood any better. Put on your favorite outfit.

10.Take a nap and restart your day. Maybe you’re just tired. It’s a great way to start over with a new attitude.

Let me know your bad mood busters


Another amazing beach wave product

hair products

I’m always trying new products to perfect the beachy wave look I prefer for my hair. I have tried so many products and may have left me frizzy or dry looking.Curly hair can be tough to work with.

Deva Curl Wave Maker is a really nice product. I just got it in the mail from Ulta last night. It leaves soft, touchable waves that are less messy than the Paul Mitchell ultimate wave. It also has less hold as it is more of a mousse cream as opposed to a gel cream. No crunchy waves with this! It smells faintly of coconut oil, which could be a deal breaker for some people, but it is slight.

I used slightly less than a palm sized amount in my hair, ( one squeeze from the bottle) and scrunched it in, but my hair is very thick. You may need less depending on the length and thickness of your hair. This product kind of stretches curls into waves, so it would most likely not work on straight hair very well. If you have curly hair that you wish was more wavy than curly, then you will love this!!

I have frizz fee, soft natural looking waves without any additional styling. I love anything that makes getting ready easier! I’m so over using hot tools on my hair, and avoid blow-drying when I can.

Let me know if you try it!! Do you have any great hair products??